There's always an introduction...

Well, I have struggled with being unhappy because of my weight by entire life, almost. When I was a kid, my parents and family nicknamed me stick, because I was
stick skinny' like a rail. Well, that lasted until I hit puberty, and in middle school, I was no longer a stick. I really thought at that time that I was fat, but looking back on it, I was just fuller than the thin girls. You know those types of girls who are naturally thin and petite and can eat whatever they want and never gain a pound? Yeah, they were my friends and I was envious of them. Soon after I was already feeling conscious of how I looked, I got bad acne, which took years to clear up( I actually just cleared it up last year!). So, I guess the acne took over, as far as being self-conscious.

    By the time I got to high school, I had enrolled in dance, and was so happy that dane kept me well toned, but I was still the bigger girl, compared to all those thin dancers. Finally,my high school boyfriend, who I met sophomore year is the one who really plumped me up. unknowingly, i'm sure. And at such a young age,for me, I had no idea what I was really doing to my body, I just wanted my boyfriend to like me, i think. So, the story goes, that anytime I  would go over to his house, he would always want to eat...he was always so hungry, sometimes I think he didn't eat much, even-though he was pretty overweight,too. So, I would eat too, every week, or sometimes twice a week, we'd eat greasy, cheesy,salty, fast food meals, of huge proportions. I'm not saying he's the reason i'm a bigger girl, because he's not. They were my own choices. Anyway, then I went off to college, and through the stress of being a commuter, and of college itself, I found a 'friend' in food. I wasn't doing well in classes,I wasn't happy with myself, and not having friends was tough, so my first year, I found food, and gained probably about 30 pounds,which is where I am today.

  Sometime in my sophomore year of college, I started to do Jillian Michaels' 30 day shred, and eat healthy, and i lost 10 pounds, and gained some serious muscles. But, it was 'too' much work, and I went back to my old lazy ways of complaining about being heavy, but not holding myself accountable.

So here I am today, on day 3 of the 30 day shred again, eating healthier, and wanting to loose weight and become a woman I can be proud of. I am turning 21 in 11 days, and by that time I want to be feeling better about myself. I want to go into my 21st year of life, and into adulthood feeling nothing but good bout myself. So, I want to thank Angie from My So Called Choas and Health Not to Health Nut for inspiring me to want to do this, and for sharing thestory that inspired her, which is Tricia, who gave herself 21 days to make a lifestyle change,eat healthy and loose weight, and at the end if she hated it, she gave herself an out, but she wound up loosing 128 pounds after she stuck with it! Check out her before/after pictures, because they are seriously inspiring!

So here I am. I am finally getting my life together, and I want to loose weight, and more than anything, make a life style change.